Behind the glass. Poetry

I’ll let myself go.
We had to part.
***
And step by step silence.
And me and you and the full moon.
It’s like we’re hand in hand
Walking through life
Who was the hero?
You’re the hero closest to me.
You’re my pain.
Where’s the laughter?
***
Tell me about it.
Explain it to me.
What’s wrong?
You’re hurting me!
Tell me.
I’m collecting,
I count
And when I feel like crying.
I suffer.
***
Scorched and no more.
Sounds, sounds
No! Scream!
They’ll leave a mark
And they’ll forget again
I can’t.
I’ll just be.
***
How many times
To beat, to endure!
Forgive all the pain
And cry again!
To see the line
And only light
What is there to forgive?!
Are you waiting for an answer?
You’ve left yourself alone
Suffer!
I’ll leave carelessness behind.
***
And danced again.
Drinking, screaming
My pain wouldn’t let me go.
But it kept coming back
And I met it irrevocably.
***
To the creak, to the crunch.
To the sigh
Of sad lips.
To the sighing of sad minds,
You draw a circle for yourself.
And what? Is it goodbye already?
What about the sky?! Heights!
You must remember
Forever…
How sweet and bitter
You’ll leave now.
And me?
Bye…

***
Desperate moments
I’m going to forget
But not now
And not in the moments
How can I save myself?
To hide myself in the morning?
So that at dawn
Only to face life.
And not to think of pain
To hold back the trembling in my thoughts.
With a divorce of the will
Let me begin again.
I want so much
Call me to sound.
***
It hurts so much to admit it!
When I wanted to dream again,
When I wanted to break
And smile! To dissolve
When I wanted to forget my hurts.
But so much blood
I’m gone.
***
You know what I realized?
I don’t want a relationship.
I don’t want to believe anything.
I don’t want to feel.
I don’t want to convince myself.
I don’t want to get used to being alone.
I don’t want to give up the fairy tale.
And I want to live life.
I care so much about this path.
I don’t want to miss anything.
I’d rather forget.
I’d rather stop loving us.
***
In the sky’s place