Behind the glass. Poetry

What role will you play forever?
What fairy tale will you stop believing in?
Where the light will flicker
And you’ll be tired of looking for it.
Where shall I call you?
You don’t understand me anymore
And the meaning of my words
You won’t find
You’ll leave your life behind
Making up phrases
Hello sadness
So sad,
Were you waiting for me?
***
I won’t forgive you.
I won’t forget you.
I’ll let you go.
I won’t be with you.
***
I don’t know
How I’m gonna live my life
I don’t know
How I’m gonna forget my thoughts
How I’m gonna watch the water
Running down the glass
How am I gonna think?
How am I gonna dream?!
How do I believe
In what I love so much?
How do I know
When I’ll come again
When the gap is gone
Between us
I’ll call
Let’s write in our minds
We used to be together
What’s become of us?
***
When you’re asked to say
– Don’t speak
When you’re asked to live
– Don’t believe.
When you’re asked to trust.
– Run away
***
And suddenly forgive
How to miss the moment
The rhythm of life won’t let me stop
I’m leaving again
But my heart roars
In moments I’ve forgotten
Screaming, it’ll pass!
I don’t believe it! I don’t want to hear it!
But a voice calls!
Moments, thoughts
I knew it all!
But how it hurts so much!
For myself
I lost.
***
I believed, I thought!
That’s how I left.
In a new handwriting
I began to write
But I left the stem
And a stamp.
Why do I need all this?
I’ll miss you.
***
There’s so much in them.
Too bad they only suffer.
They remember their fears and dream again.
Unwanted before the light.
We were together.
We met each moment
Like drops
reflecting the light.
Run for it!
You still have your dawn.
***
I can’t hide my tears every night.
I’ve never been able to understand.
What does it all mean?
I’m tired of being confused by these days
You’re there
But without me
I miss you unrequited and alone.
Regret, anger and forget in the morning.
That’s how time passes
I’ll never know the final answer
I’ll say it out loud I miss you!
And in my mind I’m in pain
It’s time to forget
I’m letting you go.
***
I don’t want to look for reasons
I don’t want to read objections
I don’t want to whisper the life of time
I don’t want to forget
I don’t want to wake up