Behind the glass. Poetry

***
I sprinkle salt on my wounds,
And I’m in tears
And I suffer
And I’m willing to kill myself.
Now I see it!
It’s all in vain
The heart will forget.
I forgive.
I’ll feel better
I let go.
***
I never took offended
Did you?
Yes!
And rose again!
And fall to pieces.
And forgave!
And I called!
I was amazed
It pains me to see
There’s another life here
And I don’t know
The word grief.
But I’ve experienced
All I can
I’ll finish myself
You make me feel like I’m alone.
***
In the fervor of the wind,
Of unbridled days
We have forgotten
Who in the world of men
Ruling over us
And with our hands clasped
We answer-
That our friend
Only fear.
***
And loyalty again
And tears of forgiveness,
Who are you gonna tell?!
I don’t believe it!
I forget the sorrow
And love
But I suffer so much!
Crucified like two wings
Scream, run!
I’m alone again.
Spreading the ashes,
The muses are gone.
Don’t wait for me.
Another fate.
***
Minute sounds
And laughter…
We’re apart
That’s all she could think about.
She couldn’t wait.
I’ll be gone!
I’m used to being alone.
***
I squeeze my lips until they bleed!
And it doesn’t hurt.
I’m inside.
I smile and write.
I don’t want to do this at all.
I trample everything around me.
When the pain goes away
And I walk away.
I pick up the pieces of myself
All the things I leave behind
I forget
I go round and round again
I can’t let go
I’ll walk away.
***
Say you love me.
Say it all without words.
Tell me we can do anything.
Tell me what love is.
Tell me I’ll live
Tell me I know
Tell me what I want to hear.
Tell me I’ll forget.
Say it’s not a problem.
Say I’ll see the sunrise.
Say I’ll be forever…
***
And you’re at the door again, and he’s on the doorstep.
Why don’t you understand?!
You and I are not gods.
For our moment together.
I’ve already paid for it in tears.
I’ve kept all the things
That I can’t hide from everyone.
But tell me.
What am I to you?
***
Don’t you know what pain is?