A Cowboy's Duty

“Passing through.” Gavin hoped. “I’m looking for the Cash place.”

“Was good people…Ely and Ada Cash. Solid, Christian folk.” The old man shook his head, dislodging a hank of oiled hair from the top of his noggin. The strand fell across one eye. “A shame, you know.”

“What’s that?”

“Ely and Ada’s only child, Aimee, couldn’t keep her legs crossed long enough to find a decent man.”

Gavin had heard the gossip on the circuit—that all six Cash brothers had different fathers. He sensed the old man didn’t get many customers each day and if he didn’t cut to the chase he’d be stuck listening to back-in-the-old-days stories. “There an address for the Cash property?”

The clerk shook his head. “Go back through town and turn right on Route 10. ’Bout eight miles down the road you’ll run into the pecan farm.”

“Any landmark I should look for?”

“There’s a billboard advertisin’ Vera’s Lounge fer Gentlemen.” The geezer chuckled. “Vera ain’t runnin’ her bawdy house no more, but Peaches, the girl on the billboard, still gives private dances if yer interested.”

Gavin wasn’t. “Thanks for the directions.” He made it to the door before the clerk’s voice stopped him. “Don’t know what business ya got with the brothers, but don’t cross ’em. They’ll bring ya down like a pack o’ wolves.”

Although Gavin’s business was with Dixie not her brothers, the warning reminded him to watch his back. With each passing mile along Route 10, his confidence slipped. He’d had ample time to mull over the news that Dixie was pregnant. Like a scratched record, his mind replayed the morning-after minutes in the motel room. Dixie wouldn’t make eye contact when he’d apologized for letting things get out of hand. He’d guessed that she’d been embarrassed about their lovemaking—now he wasn’t sure.

What if Dixie had been in a relationship with another man and they’d had a fight? Then she’d gone to Gavin’s motel room and when she woke the next morning, she realized she’d cheated on her partner. Guilty feelings would explain Dixie’s withdrawal and the fact that she’d never contacted him about her pregnancy—because her boyfriend was the father of her baby, not Gavin. He sure in hell hoped that was the case. In any event, he wouldn’t rest easy until he knew the truth.

And if the baby’s yours…

Gavin shoved the thought from his mind when he spotted the dilapidated billboard in the distance. The sun had faded the sign, but the outline of Peaches’s voluptuous curves remained visible. He turned onto a dirt road. Rows of pecan trees for as far as the eye could see escorted him through the property. After a quarter mile, a whitewashed farmhouse came into view. Dixie’s truck sat parked out front.

The two-story home was in need of a little TLC. The black shutters could use a coat of paint. The front porch sagged at one end and a handful of spindles were missing from the railing. A swing hung at an odd angle from the overhang and a collection of empty flowerpots sat near the screen door.

Gavin parked next to Dixie’s truck and turned off the ignition. He waited for a barking dog to announce his presence but the farm remained eerily quiet. A gray weathered barn with a tin roof sat across the drive. There was no sign of harvesting equipment and Gavin questioned whether the pecan farm was in production anymore. He climbed the porch steps but before he raised his fist to knock, a loud bang echoed through the air. Switching directions he walked to the barn where he found Dixie.

The first sight of her sent an unwelcome spark of excitement through Gavin. There was nothing sexy about Dixie’s attire—jeans, a faded oversize Arizona Cardinals T-shirt and rubber gloves that went up to her elbows. She sifted through a large metal tray filled with river rock, then walked to the rear of the barn and dropped a handful of stones into a wooden cask mounted on a brick base. Next, she retrieved several bunches of straw, which she added to the barrel, and she scooped a small bucketful of ash from an old-fashioned potbelly stove with a chimney pipe that vented out the side of the barn.

“What are you making?”

A squawk erupted from her mouth. “Gavin.”

His name floated toward him in a breathless whisper. He couldn’t recall ever feeling this off balance around a woman. Dixie wasn’t a flashy girl with showy attributes, but the aura of warmth that surrounded her attracted Gavin. Her average looks, compassionate blue eyes and long brown hair made him feel safe, encouraging him to let his guard down. The night he’d spent in the motel with her he’d almost forgotten he’d been a soldier. Forgotten where he’d been and what he’d seen.

Forgotten he was broken inside.

He motioned to the workbench crowded with scales, liquid-filled jugs, colored glass bottles that resembled jars from an ancient apothecary shop, potted herbs and tin molds. “Are you and your brothers running a meth lab out of your barn?”

She didn’t laugh. “Nothing as exciting as drug-trafficking. I’m making soap.”

Soap?

Dixie dumped the remaining ash into the cask. “What are you doing here?” He gave her credit for not beating around the bush.

“Verifying information I heard in a bar.”

“Oh?”

“Johnny told a friend you were pregnant.” He studied Dixie, searching for the slightest sign he’d hit upon the truth.

Nonchalantly she returned to the workbench and sifted through tin molds. “I am.”

Gavin held his breath, waiting for her to confirm he was the father. When she didn’t offer any details relief left him light-headed. He’d guessed right—she’d been involved with another man before she’d slept with Gavin. On the heels of relief came an unsettling feeling—disappointment. He was far from old-fashioned but he’d never pegged Dixie as the kind of woman who’d cheat on her man.

For his own peace of mind, he wanted confirmation. “I’m not the father, am I?”

A stare down ensued. Dixie balked first—rubbing her fingers over her eyes.

Tears? “I didn’t know lady bull riders cried.” His attempt at humor failed miserably. Unaccustomed to dealing with female emotions Gavin gently tugged a lock of her hair, but Dixie kept her watery gaze averted.

“I’m sorry.”

Gavin tensed. “‘Sorry’ meaning…I am the father?”

She nodded.

The truth hit him like a fist in the gut. “We used a condom.”

“I know,” she said, a disgusted note in her voice. “My brother gave me that condom when I was sixteen years old before I went on my first date.”

“How old are you now?”

“Twenty-three.”

Gavin stifled a groan.

“How was I supposed to know it wouldn’t be any good?” She peeled off her gloves and jabbed a finger at Gavin’s chest. “You’re the guy. You should have had protection in your wallet.”

Accepting his share of the blame, he asked, “When did you plan to tell me?”

“Eventually.”

“Eventually when?”

“When I was good and ready.”

He doubted she’d have been good and ready anytime soon. Conflicting emotions raged inside him but beneath the chaos, he was pleased to learn Dixie wasn’t another Veronica.

Dixie turned her back to Gavin and scooped more ash into the bucket. This was not how she’d imagined breaking the news to Gavin that he was about to become a father. She peeked at him beneath her lashes. He appeared to be taking the news well. Maybe a little too well—then again when an army man received bad news, he soldiered on.

“What are you doing with the ash?” he asked when she dumped the contents of the bucket into the casket. He didn’t want to discuss the baby—fine by her.

“I’m making lye for the soap.”

“Isn’t lye a dangerous chemical?”