Yet in them is something that compels
The willing victim to the sacrifice.
My days are a continuum of hells;
Lacking purpose, but yet faced by choice;
Still, I believe it! This compelling voice –
A summons to eternity; each breath,
Relinquishing all earthly gifts to death.
And, for the eternal, there’s no grave.
When I’m ashes, these outlandish dreams,
Though still paradoxical, are brave
And blessed by angels; seems
You won’t die with me; and my love
Will carry you to spaces up above;
To your name, my legend will be linked,
For, after death, our souls are indistinct.
For the dead, there’s peace at least; a son
Shall worship what his father once despised.
This is how the race of life is run:
In order that each force be neutralised.
A person, whether yet advanced in years –
Mere blossom to be scattered; and all fears
Are equally contemptible. A womb
Is just a staging post towards a tomb.
So, with the formation of a soul –
By a river, facing the abyss,
Watching as the rapid waves cajole
The blue into the white with noisesome hiss.
And, above that foaming, turbid tide,
I stood and listened, dazed, preoccupied,
Lost amidst the unremitting din
That scattered all the restless thoughts within.
There was I content. If I could only
Forget the unforgettable! Her glance –
Source of all distress! Why I am lonely!
Known by her across the wide expanse
Of time, and destined here to love
Her, and her alone. To God above
I pray for torments new, yet these elide
That ghost that still continues to reside.
No one cares for me, not then or now;
Burdensome to others and a devil;
Anguish divagates upon my brow;
I am cold and proud and even evil
Like the crowd; but is it of her art
To daringly transpierce into my heart?
Could she even know its rightful name –
Since there are fire and shadow all the same?
Across the sky, a dark cloud brings a chill,
But in its heart it hides a deadly fire,
Which, bursting forth, attenuates to nil