My patients sat before me in the semicircle. It had been easy to hypnotise them this time, and we had drifted softly down together through lapping water. I was working with Charlotte again. Her face was relaxed yet sorrowful, with deep, dark circles under her eyes; the point of her chin was slightly crumpled.
I waited. It was clear that Charlotte was under deep hypnosis. She was breathing heavily but silently.
“You know you’re safe with us, Charlotte,” I said. “Nothing can harm you. You feel good. You are pleasantly relaxed.”
She nodded sadly and I knew she could hear me; she was following my words and was no longer able to distinguish between actual reality and the reality of hypnosis. It was as if she were watching a film in which she herself took part. She was both audience and actor, united as one.
“Don’t be cross,” she whispered. “Sorry, I’m so sorry. I will console you, I promise, I will console you.”
We were in the haunted house. I knew we had reached Charlotte’s dangerous rooms and I wanted her to stop; I wanted her to have the strength to look up from the floor and see something, to catch a glimpse of the thing she was so afraid of. I could hear the group breathing around me. I wanted to help her, but I had no intention of forcing the pace this time; I was not about to repeat last week’s mistake.
“It’s cold in Grandfather’s gym,” Charlotte said suddenly.
“Can you see anything?”
“Long floorboards, a bucket, a cable,” she said, almost inaudibly.
I could see her eyelids quivering. Fresh tears seeped through her eyelashes. Her open hands were nested in her lap, palms up, like an old woman.
“You know you can leave the room whenever you want to.”
“Can I?”
“Whenever you want.”
“That’s probably for the best.”
She fell silent, lifted her chin, then slowly turned her head, her mouth half open like a child’s.
“I’ll stay a little while longer,” she said.
“Are you alone in there?”
She shook her head. “I can hear him,” she murmured, “but I can’t see him.” She frowned, as if she were trying to see something that was out of focus. “There’s an animal here,” she said suddenly.
“What kind of animal?” I asked. The hair rose on the back of my neck.
“Daddy has a big dog …”
“Is your daddy there?”
“Yes, he’s here, he’s standing in the corner; he’s upset, I can see his eyes. I’ve hurt Daddy, he says. Daddy is upset.”
“And the dog?”
“The dog is moving about in front of his legs, sniffing. It comes closer, moves back. Now it is standing quietly beside him, panting. Daddy says the dog is to guard me. I don’t want that, it shouldn’t be allowed to do that; it isn’t—”
Charlotte gasped for breath. A dreadful shadow passed over her face. I thought it was best to come up out of the trance, up out of the black sea. She ran the risk of wrenching herself out of the hypnosis if she moved forward too quickly. We had found the dog; she had stayed and looked at it. This was an enormous step forward. In time we would solve the riddle of who the dog actually was.
As we floated up through the water, I saw Marek part his lips and bare his teeth at Charlotte. Lydia reached out through a dark green cloud of seaweed, trying to stroke Pierre’s cheek; Sibel and Jussi closed their eyes and drifted upwards. We met Eva Blau hovering just beneath the surface.
We were almost awake. The dividing line where reality dissolves into the influence of hypnosis is always unclear, and the same is true during the reverse journey, back to the territory of consciousness.
“We’ll take a break now,” I said, and turned to Charlotte. “Good idea?”
“Thank you,” she said, lowering her eyes.
Marek got up, asked Sibel for a cigarette, and went outside with her. Pierre remained in his seat next to Jussi. Lydia stood up slowly, stretched her arms languidly above her head, and yawned. I thought I would tell Charlotte I was pleased she had chosen to stay a little while longer in her haunted house, but she had left the room.
I had picked up my pad to make a few quick notes when Lydia came over to me. Her heavy jewellery clinked softly, and I could smell her perfume as she stood next to me. “Isn’t it my turn soon?”
“Next time,” I replied, without looking up from my notepad.
“Why not today?”
I put my pen down and met her gaze. “Because I was intending to continue with Charlotte.”
“But if she doesn’t come back,” Lydia persisted.
“Lydia, I try to help all my patients.”
She tilted her head to one side. “But you’re not going to succeed, are you?”
“What makes you think that?”
She shrugged her shoulders. “Statistically, one of us will commit suicide, a couple will end up in an institution, and—”
“You can’t reason like that.”
“Yes, I can,” she said, “because I want to be one of those who makes it.” She took a step closer to me and her eyes gleamed with unexpected cruelty as she lowered her voice. “I think Charlotte will be the one who takes her own life.”
Before I had time to respond, she simply sighed and said, “At least she hasn’t got any children.”
I watched Lydia go and sit down. When I glanced at the time, I realised more than fifteen minutes had passed. Pierre, Lydia, and Jussi had returned to their seats. I called Marek in; he was wandering around in the hall, talking to himself. Sibel was standing in the doorway, smoking, and giggled wearily when I asked her to come in.
Lydia’s expression was smug when I finally had to admit that Charlotte hadn’t returned.
“Right,” I said, bringing my hands together. “Let’s continue.”
I saw their faces before me. They were ready. In fact, the sessions were always better after the break; it was as if they were all longing to return to the depths, as if the lights and the currents down there were whispering to us, inviting us to join them once again.
The effect of the induction was immediate. Lydia sank into a deep hypnosis in just ten minutes.
We were falling. I could feel lukewarm water washing over my skin. The big grey rock was covered with corals. The tentacles of their polyps were waving in the water. I could see every detail, every glowing, vibrant colour.
“Lydia,” I said, “where are you?”
She licked her dry lips and tipped her head back; her eyes were just closed, but she had an irritated expression around her mouth, and her brow was furrowed. “I’m taking the knife.” Her voice was dry and rasping.