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1948

Judge and Mrs. Leonard Lawton

2330 Country Club Lane

Pine Ridge, Washington

Joyfully announce the long-awaited

Birth of their daughter

Jillian Lynn Lawton

On

January 15, 1948

6 lbs, 3 oz.

19 inches

Pine Ridge Herald

BORN SEPTEMBER 1, 1948

Adams, Mr. & Mrs. Charles,

112 Folsom Avenue, boy

Adamski, Mr. & Mrs. Michael,

220 Railroad Avenue, girl

Burns, Mr. & Mrs. Harold,

456 North 3rd Street, boy

Franklin, Mr. & Mrs. Oscar,

33 Main Street, boy

Johnson, Mr. & Mrs. Gary,

743 Weeping Willow Lane, girl

Lamb, Mr. & Mrs. Dolphus,

809 South 8th Avenue, boy

September 10, 1948

220 Railroad Avenue

Pine Ridge, Washington

Dearest Momma,

I thought you should know Mike and I had a baby girl on September first. I realize Daddy said I wasn’t to contact either of you ever again, but I felt you’d want to know you had a granddaughter.

We named her Lesley Louise and she weighed 8 pounds. Lesley because it seems like such a pretty name and Louise after you, Momma. Mike wasn’t home to take me to the hospital, so Gertie Burkhart, who lives next door, drove me. My labor took almost twenty hours. I thought I was going to die, but all that pain was worth it the first time I got to hold my daughter. She’s a beautiful baby, Momma. She has your nose and Mike’s fore head, with soft wisps of blond hair. I think her eyes are going to be blue, but the nurse told me we won’t be able to tell until Lesley is six weeks old.

I wonder what the future holds for my baby girl. Will she grow up to be smart and pretty? Will she have a chance to finish high school? Dare I dream that one day she’ll go to college the way I always hoped I would? Mike says asking questions like that is a waste of time. Still, I can’t help wondering if those were the same questions you had when I was born, Momma. Did you love me as much as I love my baby? I’m sure you did and I can’t believe you no longer love me now.

Mike and I are doing all right. We live in Washington State—it seems so far away from Mississippi. We’re renting a two-storey house and Mike’s uncle got him a job at the lumber mill. He’s working lots of hours and I’ve been putting a little bit aside every week for when the mill shuts down, which it seems to do on a regular basis. Unfortunately, Mike was so excited the night Lesley was born that he got drunk and was arrested. I had to use the money I’d saved to bail him out of jail.

I miss you, Momma. I’m not any of those ugly names Daddy called me.

If I don’t hear from you, then I’ll accept that you agree with Daddy and want nothing more to do with me. When I look at my baby, I don’t think of the circumstances that led to her birth. What Mike and I did was a sin, but we’re married now.

Lesley is a beautiful child, created in the image of God. That’s what Father Gilbert said a child is, and I believe him. I hope you’ll love her despite everything.

Your daughter,

Dorothy

Mrs. Leonard Lawton

2330 Country Club Lane

Pine Ridge, Washington 98005

October 12, 1948

Dearest Aunt Jill,

I regret taking so long to answer your letter. After waiting fifteen very long years for a child, one would assume I’d be better prepared for the demands of motherhood. I had no idea an infant would take up so much of my time and energy. I’m months behind on my correspondence and can only beg your indulgence.

Jillian is truly our joy. As you know, Leonard and I had given up hope of ever having a child. We’re both convinced her birth is a miracle and we are so very grateful. I know how pleased you are that we named her after you, but you’ve been a mother to Leonard since his own dear mother’s death. Without you, he wouldn’t have any memories of her.